Daily Inspiration: A Beautiful Memory

Friday, October 5, 2012

Good morning! It's Friday already. Reporting day today so I am expecting a busy day.

Here's our Daily Inspiration for today.


Today, it has been 7 years living without our father. I clearly remember those days. Prior to his death we brought him to the hospital because he was having a hard time breathing. Actually, he did not want to go to the hospital but because I talked to him, he gave in. We immediately went home and saw my father in his worst condition. He can't breathe properly and the doctor said his kidney isn't functioning well and they had to inject insulin because of his diabetes. My husband and I, and my mother were there to looked after him. We were awake for 24 hours and had to go back to work the next day. 

It was Tuesday night and I really can't sleep despite the fact that I don't have enough sleep. I was constantly thinking of my father who at that time can't also sleep. He was really having a hard time breathing and that kept on bothering me. I only slept when brother told me that our father slept already only to find out he just told me that for me to relax. Before I slept, I closed my eyes and pray to God that whatever His plan, thy will be done. I whispered to my father that if he can no longer bear it, just leave and we will be okay.

He died an hour passed one in the morning. I just learned that when I woke up 5 in the morning and found out Daddy Allan was outside my room trying to wake me up. That moment I can't explain how I felt. I cried until I have no tears. We traveled for 5 hours and as we approached our house the pain became more intense. Seeing my father inside this white coffin broke my heart. I poured my heart out and until now, remembering that day put a tear in my eyes.

My father died but all the memories with him will be treasured forever. God has a better plan so I trust Him. My only regret is that, my father will never see his grandchild, my son and my future children. I missed to see how happy his face will be to see all his grandchildren. Given another chance, I hope to see him again and spend even just a day with him. 

I missed you Tatay.