Every morning my husband and I wake up early. We cook our breakfast and lunch, eat our breakfast then take a bath and prepare to go to work after. That's always our morning scenario every day when there's work. Kelangan mabilis kumilos, kelangan planado na lahat ng lulutuin. Lucky that my husband is good at the kitchen. Masipag pa sa akin at madalas nauuna pang bumangon sa akin.
I always wish sana sa bahay na lang ako so we don't need to rush in the morning. Especially now, my son say what he feels already. This morning nga, while I am dressing him up for school, he innocently said, "ang sarap po pag may magulang na nagbibihis sa akin." Grabe tagos sa dibdib! Last week lang he asked me when will my work end so he will a mother to fetch him from school. Even how independent he is, I know he's sometimes envious at his classmates who have their moms always around.
If only he hears how I pray hard for this every night. How I always feel guilty whenever we have failed promises, whenever I can't be with him and whenever I can't give him enough time. Sobrang naguumapaw na yun guilt sa puso ko lalo na kapag nagsasabi sya ng nararamdaman nya. I feel like I am not a good mom and I worry if I am raising my son right.
But in this time when I am doubting my self as a mom, these came to our surprise.
Our little boy secretly put that inside my wallet and these two letters we found inside our bags.
I am not alone in this and I know many working moms can relate. Sometimes, we just need such reminder to our selves as moms.
Because worrying about being a good mom means we are already one. Most of all our kids believe we are not just a good mom but the best mom!
Have a great week ahead!